5 Seconds It Takes To Countdown,
5 Seconds It Takes For Me To Make Someone Cry, (Well I Can Do This, Just Try Me =P )
5 Seconds It Takes For You To Take Something From Me,
5 Seconds It Takes For Me To Forgive Someone,
5 Seconds It Takes For Me To Count From One To Five,
5 Seconds Is All I Need To Spend My Whole Life Time With You.
This poem is dedicated to someone who has taken something from me that I have lost for the past 3 years. It’s my great pleasure to meet you.
How about this week’s coming new year? Are you going to spend it with your love ones? Or are you going to be all alone at home again? For those who are going to be alone at home, I suggest that you give someone a call ushering into the new year, wish them all the best in the coming months ahead and all his/her aspirations for the whole year will come true and fruitful… hmm…
For those who are spending their time ushering into the New Year with their friends and love ones, I wish you all will be friends for ever and for those love birds, may your love be as the stars in the sky. The position on them will never be moved…
So many things happen this year, as every year past by for me. These past three year counting from 2004 have been a quite challenging time for me and my trusty brain. I learn so many things; meet so many friends and foes. I’ve never tasted love since then, let alone spending my festive season with my other half… should I find one. But then again, I still have friends =) all is not lost. To love someone is to love them without boundary; even he/she didn’t return your love. You can still be friends?
I’m getting tired, but I must go one with my life. There are so many things that left undone. Is up to me to finish those tasks given by people or by god. To God, I would like to apologies that I have forgotten you this past few months. I have never forgotten about you. I will never forget about you. Thou I fear you, but I will never stop loving you.
For everyone who frequent patron my blog, I would like to wish you a Merry Belated Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Ushering to year 2005.
See you guys again!!!
Adios, Terima Kasih, Thank You and Sayonara
1/4 century of my life has just passed. Nothing much happen today, so busy with my work as usual. Finally my passion for my work slowly coming back to my life. So much thing happen when you turn old each year. Some are good, some are bad. Some are the same, some are just different.
My ex-girlfriend send me a SMS (Short Message System : Cellular Phone) today, It was the least person that I aspect to wish me happy birthday. Another surprise message received today, from someone I knew introduce to me by my colleague. How things turnout for me.
As usual my birthday celebration was at a small scale. Got myself a birthday present in a shape of a computer hardware device - soundcard. =') Finally I'm able to taste some eargasm... To h3ll with Creative!
Can't wait to be 50?
Had my end of the year appraisal yesterday. The same old story again, I have to overcame myself before I'm able to move a step further in the company. Not just about the my position in the company now, is about the faith that certain people have in me at the company.
Should I disappoint them further? Or should I strive/soldier on and hope for the best? Or take up the challenges ahead just like every single breath you take is a fresh air for your lung just like when you're 1st come out of your mother's womb...?
"I Don't Wanna Wait In Vain For Your Love"
One of the verse in a music name "Waiting In Vain". Are you waiting in vain now for someone's love?
How long have you been waiting? 1 Week? 2 Months? Or 3 Years!? Whether the wait is really worth it later on, that is another obstacle that you have to succumb once the other person really accept your love. How long was your last relationship last? Well mine was almost 1 year if I'm not mistaken.
Everything was so fast, I wasn't waiting for her love. Maybe there was a price to pay for that. In the end we broke of because of some reason that both of us could not talk out to it. Does this one "blip" in my life make any difference in my life? Well it did, things turn out bad for me as times goes by. I've rarely have any chance to meet any girls after that. Let alone dated anyone, was anti social for few months after I broke up with my 1st ex. I did have a friend that I could count on that time. But as times goes by, she also have her own personal things to settle with. So I was alone yet again.
Was kind of sick of how I turn out one day, so I decided to be myself again. I mix with the crowd again, gain some self confidence again in the process. Dated few colleagues in the office, didn't turn out great as well. Note to self:-
1. Never rush into a relationship.
2. Never sacrifice yourself to them to show how sincere you are.
3. Just be yourself (heck, someone who loves you doesn't care much as long as you are who you are)
4. Don't exchange phone numbers when you meet for the 1st time. If you did happen to exchange phone numbers, try not to call the instance you got them. Lets say maybe in 3-4 weeks (optional, just don't call them once you got their phone number!) time?
5. Don't date when you meet them for the 1st time.
6. Just go slow, the tortoise always wins the hare... hmm...
More to come, till tomorrow then. Have a good week ahead.
“Fate”...
What is the true meaning behind the word “fate”? Are they many ways to interpret this meaning for us to understand the meaning behind it better?
Is it good for our life? If so, is it good for us to think that nothing is seems to be going our way at times and is this due to our “fate”? Then it comes to the point in that our lives are revolved around “fate”… but then does our love lives also revolves around it. How do we manage our own “fate”? Do we have to do lots of things to make our lives much better for us? Do we have to do the things that we ourselves despise of and not fond of doing it?
Sometimes I wonder myself, does each passing day have its own meaning towards our lives? How can we fully make use of each day so that we could actually achieve something that will make us happy and enjoy being alive? Do we have to tempt “fate” to tango with us on our daily lives? I don’t think so.
As things come and go as well as the time. People often blame “fate” on things that has taken place on our daily lives. Let me ask you this, Can’t you control your own “fate”? Are they hard to control? Are they hard to come by? How do I know when “fate” is taking its place now in our day? How do I swallow the fact that things happen are cause by “fate”?
Be more aware of the things that comes by, it might be good and bad. But at times things that are happening with our lives are just part and parcel of things to come as each day unfolds upon your eyes.
I’m just not myself today, I’m am currently tempting “fate” to take hold on my life. I know this is bad, most of you viewers here may even say that I’m stupid or something to let “fate” run my life. Finally I got a phone line, now in the processed on getting a broadband service running so that I can update this block as frequent as possible… maybe, just maybe =P.
December is my favorite month of the year, may it be the festive days that are coming or my job year end appraisal. I just love this month, as it holds a special meaning in my life. Not just about life, is just about myself. A journey to man hood? Or a journey to Mr. Nobody?
Yeah, what does the title mean? Am I losing my grip on my own life? Am I losing my grip on my work life? Am I losing my grip on the things that I love to do? Nothing is great at my life at the moment. Maybe is just another blip, just hope it is. Not having anything to do is much more worst then not knowing what you are suppose to do... For the moment.
Damn, didn't have enough sleep last night. This is all due to my bloody housing area having some electrical power failure. Didn't even sleep well last night. Reason, had this bloody "half awake dream" and was strangle by the neck by a don't know who woman/girl. It was surreal... I can even feel her fingers when I stop what she was doing to me!!! Anyone know how to interpreted this dream, please let me know...
I'm so freak out with this dream at the moment... Can't seem to get it of my mind... argg... What a way to start you day off... As usual... Bah!
Yeah, the reason that I have been missing for the past few weeks and also not updating my blog is simple. I have my own life to live for as well ='P. At the moment my life is so unclear, in my previous blog entry's I have mention that I will quit my current job. Now the problem is like this, whether is good or not for my future. I still have to go on with my life. Nothing can be whine about now. Ill just take everyday now as it comes, well maybe do a little thinking on what is the best job out there that I can venture in. Maybe writing, or get back the same kind of job that I'm in now. And I choose to do writing now, for some gaming magazine. Let see how will things turn out for me, yeah my England is still bad =P. So sue me! Eheheh. Alright then... cya in awhile... Perhaps another few more weeks... Or months... Before I update this blog... Again!!! =P
Take care to all who reads my blog, and peace on earth.
Yeah it's been really really awhile since I last posted anything on my blog... reason... my mind is currently blank like an empty well... will try and see If I could remember what happen on my life for the past few weeks... and see what story I can cook up. Yeah added some photo at my site... hope you guys notice it... hmm... well that is my baby photo from my 1st passport for Malaysia-Singapore... talk about baby face...
Later guys.
Yeap... back to
Who was it to blame? Who else, but myself.
I didn't plan my time properly prior on taking leave on Friday and then have to take care of some unfinished business before I leave KL to
It so happen that the bus companies stop at one of the rest and relax place at Johore, my sister told me to see whether I was able to board that bus to
Reach
The next day, wake up at 8AM. Have to get ready and go to Suntec Convention and Exhibition Hall. Covering an event there, so have to be early. Well actually I didn’t know what time that event start and end. So I just have to be there early. Guess what, the event starts at 11AM. My sister and I reach there at about 9:30AM… talk about not getting late again. Note to self again, make sure you know what is the time of any events that you are going to attend in the future.
So we took this time and walk around the Suntec Shopping Complex, she show me around the place. Which I remember how it looks like from my previous trips. Not much change since then, some new shops around. Most of them are restaurant, I think this is the best business that one could make a living at
Was at the event from the start to the end, taking photos and talking with my friend who was at the event few days earlier. We had lunch on one of the food court there, I must say I missed
to be continue…
Yeap... taking MC tomorrow just to finish all my task before I head to Singapore for the weekend... eheheh... shhh... don't tell my boss yeah... =P eheheh. Cya later guys...
Hmm... not that i'm gay or what... just feel very happy today =) eheheh... hmm I guess this is what I'm going to blog about today =) cya guys... zoommm...
Not exactly Superman... but given the chance to test any computer related products... well I don't exactly say no to it. In fact ill take my chance on it. Today manage to get the newest Intel 925X BC Chipset motherboard and the Intel Pentium 4 560 3.6GHz Prescott system up and running. So far... wasn't impressed much by it... the CPU temperature was way of my personal temperature threshold... well I think this applies to some people out there. Not just me... I think Intel is losing this battle of processor this year... AMD is fast rising to their expectation on their 64 bit processors.
So who would you go for??? AMD or Intel?
Did I bore you guys to death? Well this is what the happy side happen today, don't want to talk about the unhappy side of it...
Yup... I have made up my mind on lots of thing. Meet my friend last week... we had a great conversation. He make me realised that I need to do something now before it's really too late. This few coming months will be a make or break for my entire life. Whether I'm able to achieve it without much problem it's all going to depend on my will power.
Yeah... just got a news from my friend... he got some surprise for me... some news. Well hope it's good... cause I really need something good to listen to at the moment. Really getting sick and tired of my job here. Oh yeah... came late to work again today... watch DVD movies again last night. Sigh... so bored... but brought myself some music CD yesterday, one from Travis and other one from Beastie Boys. Urggghhh...
Yeah one month into this blog of mine... nothing to brag about... but I kind of proud of myself at the moment... being able to blog if there is time given... is a luxury that ill will take advantage of it. I would like to thank those who visit my blog. Hope you guys enjoy it... if you aren't enjoying it... well don't bother to come again... yeah very straight forward on this. I don't want to be the one to be blame for wasting your precious time... with my insignificants entries.
What can I do about it? Well just have to wait for the fucking housing developer or Terrokom to come with an agreement on when the bloody phone line should be fix... till then... I just have to wait, wait, and fucking wait... sigh... using this GPRS is almost going back to Stone Age... I mean in the time of the 14kp/s Modem!!!... This is worst then using 28.8kp/s... believe me...
Oh… woke up precisely at 4:45pm today, yeah… There is a reason for this… I slept at about 6:30am... and was at my friend’s place playing mahjong… although we didn’t have a good game out of this… but we actually enjoy it… sigh… was having hard time reading those Chinese characters… me not Chinese educated… so I kind of feel sick that I can’t read my mother tongue language.
Well I don’t have any regrets on this… but if I were given the chance to learn it when I were young… ill take it… but it was not given so… nor I had the passion to learn it at my time… even though there were POL (People Own Language) classes held at my school at that time… I don’t even bother to learn it… so if I want to blame… ill blame it on myself...
That is all the rant for today… goodnight... oh yeah… my dad is back from Hong Kong… now ill will spend more time with him =)
How to answer this question? Well you can say… I break sweat for my country, by paying my income tax ler… like this also not enough ar??? For some this would be one of the answers given. But for once… have you ever think of singing the national anthem song when it’s being played in the air? I mean being played in any public area… without thinking much about whether it will embarrass you or not.
But I think I just did it out of the blue yesterday… without thinking much… maybe it was in my blood to sing the national anthem… for once… or maybe it’s been awhile since I did such thing. The last time I did this… was way back in my secondary school days… how lame was that… Is there any other way for you to prove that you are patriotic? Would you climb the highest mountain for it? But I think this has already been done. What would you do for your country???
I would like to wish all Malaysian here happy National Day.
Merdeka!!!
Was at Klang this morning, helping out my friend’s side business. To make matter worst… I didn’t sleep again. Yes “zombie” again… I ask myself this question lots of times… is it so hard to wake up on time? Why is it so hard? Are we not motivated to wake up everyday? Or we some how know what will happen in the end of the day. But for me… is like a cycle of “wake up late” I can’t for once consistently wake up every single day on the same time.
Is it because I have already bored of my own life? I would like to wake up everyday in time for my work. But is just so hard… Maybe I’m fucking bored with my current job. Do I need more challenges at the moment? Or stick with my current job and leave by mid of next year? Or start to plan on what I should be doing or working for in the next coming months. Who knows… on Monday, ill might just throw in my resignation letter… but it’s seems too hard for me to do it now.
Only time will tell…
Bah… ranting again…
There is a new commuter station just open around the vicinity on the place I’m working at. It has its good and bad… but one thing for sure it’s basically suck… big time. For once I wish the Malaysia government, revamp the whole fucking transportation structure in the country. By all means… start with the bloody bus services. They don’t seem to be reaching around the destination on time. And I mean always not on time. Also this depends on certain areas… how lame can you get. For those people like me who usual
To make matter worst… the traffic condition on the Klang Valley are not that sweet of sight… even at the time of 10PM on any day… there are bound to have some stupid traffic jam somewhere along the usual roads… Just like yesterday while I was on my way back from covering the WCG event… got stuck in the bloody traffic jam for like one and a half hours… talk about driving home late at night…!!! Oh yeah… posting now at Mid Valley Exhibition Hall at the center of the Mid Valley MegaMall… finally manage to get this bloody WiFi running…
Yeah, no one is accompanying me tonight at the office, all alone... 1st time in many moons. Just finish my dinner cum supper... as show below... how pathetic eh? What to do, so many things to rush before I go on leave tomorrow. Deployed 3 fully usable PC in one day, oh yeah things just got worst. Tomorrow there is an exam for my Visual Basic module... wow... haven't even started study yet...
So fucking busy today... don't even have time to post a decent blog. ARGGG... don't even have time to take a pee or shit... dammit!!!
Will blog more later at night... sien!!!
ARGG!!! the agony!!!
WTF IS THIS!!! Dammit!!! GRRR... I swear I could burst into flames right now.
Today is just not the day to talk about anything. I just suck!!! period. Yeah as I have foresee this, when my Boss is not around... my department always will get bloody busy. 1st, one person from the Finance department ask me to retrieve a file. Fine, so I asked her. How old is the file? She reply is a 1998 file. Then I was like dumb folded... speechless I was but then I can't offend this person which I would like to call her "so called very important in the company" I told her that is not that easy to retrieve old files. As they are stored in backup tapes. So I have to succumb to retrieve that file for her... so tomorrow I have to dig the dirt up and help her look for those files again... bah!!!
I can't rant much now, is part of my J.O.B... bah!!!
Yeah I like to be spoon feed!!! yes I am. BUT I'm in the process of getting this over with. Why you ask? Well to tell you the truth, is all thanks to my best friend now. He helped me a lot, show me and tell me all my weaknesses as well as ways to improve myself. I get mad very very quickly last time. But now... ill just hold my breath when I get mad. Think the most rational way to solve the problem or the fucking thing that just happen. Most important thing is... SMILE!!! yes SMILE!!! ha!!! is not that difficult to do, my friend once said... in fact is damn true. You use less muscle to smile then frown...
I'm afraid this habit of getting fumed/mad easily is one of the main reason now of me not getting someone special in my life... Why so? well once I get to know a person more... I tend to... erm... let her know my bad habits... well not to say bad habits but the other side of me... but once they hear that I was a hot headed buffoon last time... surprisingly... most of them when missing or erm... amazingly lost interest in me... so from now on ill just keep every single of this past to myself... BAH I already told you guys here... so what is the point on doing so right now...
AHAHAH!!!
Now I'm looking forward to this coming weekend... starting tomorrow onwards... what is it all about??? Well, I will tell you all about it tomorrow... as I going to do something that I'm am very much looking forward to be or work as a full time basis. (yeah... stop thinking about those stupid things... wtf I'm trying to say here??? you guys go figure. Sorry to be rude here =P ahahah!!!)
p/s: the promised pictures of my evirob figurines are not available... why? because I'm am seriously busy at the moment... ah the joy of getting it. The next thing you know... bam...!!! being labeled "fucking busy" sien...
Wait... brb... going to toilet...
Ah... ok I'm back, excuse me just now. Ok where was I... yeah today at work was just way over bored again. Was in "rush a job" mode, so I was at here and there at the office fixing and solving all the task handed by my boss. Oh tomorrow is on leave for the whole week... which means that those bloody top managers who hate us IT department will have the opportunity to bully the fuck out of us. But then again with my friend around, there should not be much problem around. Unless some problem just come up and say, "you're fucked!".
Yeah... I was like that the last few weeks back when my boss was away for an IT conference at Hong Kong. We were bullied like shit, and I nearly fuck up a MS SQL database when I try to update some replication program from a 1.2GB size to a 120MB... nearly 3yrs of data there... BUT... I manage to fix it up and look like brand new... phew that was close. I was that close of getting my ass fired and for the 1st time I felt that I really screw up a task handed to me... what a bummer...
So today me and my boss went thro the steps again and manage to update the program without any bloody shed... double phew again!!! So I stayed late at office again today, was reading someone blog entry's... and then suddenly my friend show me this e-mail he got from his friend...
The title of this e-mail he got was "Pembantu rumah di dera" or in english "maid being abuse"
Guess what... luck is just on my side today. =') I have manage to get my hands on the evirob Kubrick Series 1 collection!!! What more could you ask. I though it's going to be hard for me to complete this series. I have already estimated that if all goes according to plans, Ill should be able to get my hands on them soonest by next 2 more months.
But then... while I was window shopping just now... and then to my eyes, the set is on displayed at one of the comic character figurine shop =') thus I quickly told the shop assistant that I want to purchase it. Even though is a display unit. The condition of the evirob figurines are as almost new. Didn't bother to take it out later on... but my hands are now itchy, and want to open it up ='P eheheh... I MUUUSSSSTTTT REEEEESSSSIIIIIITTTTT THHEE TEMPTATION>>>
ARGGG!!! ROAR!!!
w00ties, (yeah if you see this 8balls, I'm just borrowing it for awhile... muahahah!!!) spend some great quality time with my cyber friends yesterday. It's like been almost quite sometimes that we actually gather and head out to
Right now... I'm in a craze for those little figurines, i.e. those Gundam series, Spawn, Be@rbrick, Kubrick, Transformer, etc etc. Just to name a few. Now I'm starting my own collection of series from Kubrick. Already purchase the 3rd series set of 5 figurines out of the current 3 series released, and place an order for the 2nd series set. My friend told me is going to be very hard to buy the 1st series set now. Knowing that Kubrick only release these evirob series once a year. I happen to be some how behind on trying to catch up on getting the 1st set.
So hopefully I can manage to finish the other 2 series, didn't manage to take pictures of those evirob yesterday. Will post it up tomorrow. For those who don't know what the hell I'm taking about, click here.
Later on in the evening, me and my friend went for some TT session (Teh Tarik, a drink at local mamak stall/small coffee or tea stall). Missed that mamak stall for like almost 1-2 months or so, and it has the best teh o ais (plain iced tea) around the USJ area. Well for me I think they are the best there =P. Had 2 cups of it... man the taste of the tea in my tongue brought back the memories that we had experience in our gang at that time. So good to be back again with the gang. Now if you excuse me, I have to get myself ready for lunch. Oh by the way, today's Monday SUX B.I.G time for me, so what else is new boy?
Yes la... eheheh
Why am I so excited about??? nothing actually.
What do you mean "nothing"?
Nothing is nothing lor... as in zero, nil, nada, elek, mei you, tak ada, mou si.
But am really glad that I able to post something here today. 1st I like to thank those who is viewing my blog so far. Many thanks.
Yeah I'm at my lame office now, if not where else could I be? I won't spend a dime at local cybercafes at the moment. They are just worth my money just to post blogs there. =') there is a trend now, we only go cybercafes to "frag" as in Counterstrike or UT 2004, and some FT or BW.
Officialy no date again tonight (heck I been like this for quite sometime, so just suck up would YOU BOY!!! (@_@) ) I guess Ill just rot at home again after this... nothing much to do also. Maybe catch some sleep, since I have time now!!! lolz
Ok then... hope you guys enjoy your weekends. Hmm... school holiday starts as of today. I guess this is a sign of "no movies for a week" Ill explain this next week with some photos to prove my point here. Is so difficult to watch movies on school holidays in Malaysia.
Till then... Have a nice weekend.
Blech... so much for some ala Blair Witch yesterday. But then again... lolz... I'm still at my office as of posting this last entry for this week. Don't ask me why I'm still at my office. I don't like my office, I miss my bed DEARLY. I am going home now. So see you guys then. Till then... have a great weakened ='P
Phew... Where was I... Oh yeah the pictures I was suppose to show here. Well let's start things of with this picture... myself... getting ready to take those pictures...
Yes, I'm going down to 7th floor of my office building later on to take some pictures and then from each of the parking lot floors... Till the 1st floor later on. This little documentary will start at 1am. Hope that I'm freaking wide awake and notice the time. Wish me luck guys... gulp...
IGB stands for??? I have no idea on this. But one of my friends gave a good meaning to it.
I Gay Boy...
Zzzz, thanks to for this highly intellectual briefing on what's the meaning of those initials...
This project is related this topic:-
Where is...
Hmm... I was thinking of a little documentary on my daily job as an IT Assistant. Cracking my head now on what I should I document about. Should start from the time I leave my house to office or when I stay overnight at the office? I think ill just split it up in two parts. Then do coverage on my office at the middle of the night... eheheh...
Blind me!!!
Damn... so now, having grown back my natural coloured hair. Am thinking of dyeing my hair again... Thinking of a colour at the moment... perhaps... below is that dreaded Dragon Ball Z imitation… yeah don’t ask why and how the hell it turns out like this. It was suppose to be light blonde… Hair bleaching suck!!!
Me? Well I was on leave today, have to send my lovely "fish" to a car workshop. For those who is wondering what the heck I'm talking about, please refer to this link here on what is the “fish”. Ah where was I… yes… My car right side rear wheel was a total mess. Have to change the wheel bearing, the old one was like going to come out in a no time.
Was wondering how the heck it happen, didn’t even notice it till the humming sound generated by the wheel was getting worst each day. Got so worried about it took my car to the workshop today. How could this problem started? Is it because of the way that I’m driving this car? Maybe driving this car frequently with top speed at 140-150Km/h that has shorted the durability of those bearing…
Well I back at office now, as I posted yesterday. Apart from those “zombies”, there are in fact an urban legend about this building I’m working at. Those so called security officers, have seen a Indian ghost wandering around the parking floors doing a same routine jump down from a building every night. The description I heard was that ghost is a female Indian, it has a gold dust eye shadow on the left side of her eye, and dress up in a sari.
The ghost normal routine would be, going up to the 7th floor using the lift and then take the stairs and walk down to the 1st floor of the car park and then jump down from it. This cycle goes on and on until a certain time. It’s usually starts at 1 or 2am as I was told of… and then end at 3am. I don’t know how true this story is. But I’m sure I don’t want to find out about it… hmm…
Sure boh… Yeah I’m telling you the truth here. Working at this market research company for the past 3 years is a really eye opening experience. People come and go just like those *lame singer, actors or actress change their partners. The turnover rate at the Qualitative department for the past 3 years has the highest among the other departments… maybe they just need to recruit new specimens to produce new breed of zombies… hmm…
But surprisingly these few months those “zombies” are getting lesser and lesser every month… Must be something wrong here, I beg to differ on this. Is either they have less work, or the client has stop being “pain in the ass” or should I say “yeah I have no life, thus I will bug your ass till you get sick and tired of my presents in this world”. Maybe they do realise that this company don’t offer much to their so call efforts on the work they do and they just finish the report as how much they can manage to.
Even the project manage I know, who use to stay way long over the working hours, hmm this usually stretch out till early 5am the next day. Yeah they have no life then, I think now she realise that she need to G.E.T a life. So she did, now you won’t see her much around the office premises even after the late hours. Or she happens to stay back for some drinks at the local pubs here.
So what makes this company of mine so interesting then others? I don’t know… but for me it sure is. I pity those researcher who have to stay late over the night just to finish the dateline. I think this is mainly due to that they didn’t plan properly, or some “suck up, good for nothing client” complaining that the data received are not up to their expectation. Well let’s see how they would turn out to be if they would be in the same industry. Bah… I think I’m beginning to turn into one of those “zombies”
Nooo… (Imagine a camera at an angle facing my face fading away into the sky…)
*lame actors or actress: - i.e. yeah it happens… they just do this to attract media attention… well what do you think about this? healthy or just a trend? BAH!!! me here still single here... nothing to fuss or bloat about...
For what???
I have no idea on this... hmm... Looks like I'm going to “camp” (a word that I use when I’m staying overnight) at my office again this week. Have to rush something’s which require me to use the "jaring". Frustrated again that I have to “camp” at the office. But I will be much happier when all these task completed. Then I can go check on my "gold pot" for "gold coins" w00t... eh, sound like a leprechaun only...
Hmm... deep thinking...
I'm still trying to figure how to fully utilize my time nowadays. So I guess bloging will be one of them to fit into my daily schedules. But over the weekend... bloging is roughly out of the question (just check my previous posts), and then is all back to square one. Plans, well usually I don't have anything to do at night. Just rot around the house, and hope someone will call me up and say's "YO lets go out" or sms "Yum char?" or better still "lets go clubing" Hmm... What ever it is... basically my night life over the weekends are very much unoccupied... unless stated otherwise…
So how was your Friday the 13th last week? Did anything unusual happen? Well if so, hope that you are safe and sound... eheheh but ill doubt anyone will be looking forward to today. Over the weekend, watched 2 movies with my friends. Catwoman and Garfield, yeah two of those movies involve cats. I would say the
I'm still at my office at this moment... can't sleep even after I finish my entire task. Just not to sure what is in my mind at the moment. Can't think of what seems to be the problem keeping me from sleeping. I guess this coming weekend will be someone's special day. I can't celebrate it with her... why is it so? Well maybe I'm not in the position to do so. Or she already has someone special to celebrate with. What ever the reason is, what my best friend says is true "if she is yours, by God will that she'll be yours".
There is no point for me to think so much now... Ill just have to go on with my planned life for now. Ill just take each of these heart problems as a task from God. These past few months have made me realise that, there are not only one person I need to share my love with. There are my parents most important, which I neglected this duties for years. It's time I repay them back, I not that young anymore. Then my lovely sisters, for them they are my shoulder to cry on sometimes, then God. I would have put God as my 1st priority, but I think God want me to cherish my family 1st then if possible later on balance it up.
Here is a poem I written for her,
Hey beautiful,
Your smiles so sweet when I meet you the 1st time.
Your eyes are like the brightest stars in the sky at night
Your hair is smooth as the sands in the
Your presents around me are almost magical
Or your eyes that shines thru my heart?
Or your beautiful hair that manage to grab my heart?
Being around with you is almost a dream come true
For I have know so many things
For your heart is not for me
This makes me feel so vain
Because I know you won’t believe me if I said so
Even If I tell you how I feel
The only out come won’t be good
You didn’t give me a chance to prove what’s my worth to you
Though I respect your decisions
Those times we spend are infinity to me
But I want more out of this, as I deserve it
I didn't blame you for this
Cause you been hurt before and confuse
That does not mean there are no fairy tales in your life
There are still so many times in our hand
Are you afraid to go back to where you started?
Or you need someone with just a simple chemistry at the moment
I do hope I can be the one
As I would try my best to be your love
But that is still not for me to decide
Is it because you haven’t opened your heart to me?
Or could you tell me how to win your heart
I hope that in time that you will be happy
As your smiles are always so magical
Even an angry beast will be tame by it
So let my heart be at rest
As I’m not able to resist you magical smile
God tell me how to resist this
To love but not to hold
That is the best you can do for now my son
In God commands I shall follow
This is what I must do to prove myself to her
But will she notice what I been doing so far?
So let the time be the judgment on this
For I must finish this task given by God
So I may prove my worth to the people around
Or maybe she will open her heart for me again
And that is what I hope for now
Yeah, woke up late today. Overslept, after a marathon of DVD movies. Watch Cradle 2 The Grave and Steal.
The other movie Cradle 2 The Grave, staring Jet Li and DMX. Is about DMX with his gang of friends, doing jewel robbery and stole some bad guy cum killer cum terrorist so called black diamonds. This is where all the action started; well the movie is all about action and martial arts and such… nothing much to view about. If you like these types of movies, this is another movie for you to watch just to fill up your free time again. Bah…
Yeah change my site name again... I think this will defiantly reflects on what this blog is about. So let’s see if I'm able to improve my "
Dear English,
It’s been awhile since me meet up like this
Though we are together again, time is spend to learn about you again
Since the last time we meet up like this, it was because I have to
But then our friendship only lasted 96 moons
Yeah good morning lah!!!... Hmm I sound like very excited today. Why is it so… well let’s just say I saw something on my way to my office today. Makes me feel good and looking forward thru the day. Today will be my dad’s 59th birthday. Hope he is well as he is at
Dad,
You are the pillar in our family,
Since I was young, we rarely have the chance
To spend more time with you everyday,
The reason so is because you have a duty,
To keep this family together insight,
Even though I regret at times we spend are limited at times,
But every moment is fresh in my mind,
As the morning dew in the leafs as the sun rise up
Even though I miss you so much
I hardly express my feelings to you
As time is not always on our side, it makes me jealous sometimes
Hope that when you do return again
We will have more time to ride
So that we could spend some quality time again
And keep the bond intact again for days to come
So you may feel home again, and be family again.
A poem here before I leave my office... curse my housing area telecommunication developers!!! GIVE ME MY PHONE LINE!!!
Lost,
Are you lost again today?
Why that this time you get yourself lost again?
Is there no sign to guide you thru the path that you were taking?
Or you are just blinded by the truth and the facts?
Is it so hard to find back the path that you are suppose to go?
Or that there is no one to help you out in the first place?
So do you manage to find your way back the path you're suppose to be?
Or forever wait for someone to come and rescue you from the abyss.
Yes… do you feel sleepy now after your lunch? To make it worst, you are working instead of staying at home now having the luxury of going for a nap at anytime. So I would say that you are currently experiencing some difficulties keeping your head still =Þ. So here are some tips to keep you wide awake when you face this problem after your lunch hours at the office: -
So this is it… I can’t think of anything else to add on ways to keep you awake after your lunch hours. If you have any crazy ideas… do let me know about it!!!
Bah... it sucks to know that you going to be alone supporting the whole office... what a headache... am working at an IT department. So many things to follow up... sigh how I wish I had a duplicate. So he can help me out with those small matters. To make matter worst... all the task assigns are all last minute request... bloody HR department... Back to work again I guess... what a day to start on your week...
Friends,
Why are we so attach?
Are we just another “click”?
Or just a bunch of friends?
Who careless about each other?
Why do we care so much for each another?
Is this what we call boundless friendship?
Or just another “click” waiting to be parted?
Can we still be friends when one leaves the "click"?
Yes we can still be friends
Even thou we are not together again
The heart will have a special place for each other
And that is defiantly a yes
This is dedicated to one of my close friend, who is leaving
This week is going to be another chapter in my life, hmm... I wonder how would it will turn out to be... I like to sign off now... and see you guys back after the weekend. Dumb bloody new house still no internet access... bah... the suffering that I have to endure...
Taken from "Incubus - I Miss You"
"To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a tree-fold utopian dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line
If I said, I miss you?
I see your picture
I smell your sink on the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days
But already I'm wasting away
I know Ill see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know
That I care and I miss you"
Miss someone's smile?
Miss someone's kiss?
Miss someone's love?
Miss someone's joy?
Miss someone's ?
Well, where do you want to go from here?
Only you yourself can able to tell,
So what should I do if I miss that someone?
Should I go and find that someone?
And let that someone know how you feel?
Or waste the chance to tell that someone, your true feelings?
Let time tell, whether this option to keep silence,
That someone choose as well as you, are the best for each other.
Will be attending a test later on, one of the subjects which are under the syllabus on the degree courses that I'm currently attending. Haven't really study thru it yet... hope for the best... don't want to waste anymore time again... I am not a walking time machine... nor do I have the ability to change the time at my will.
Yeah... few minutes has passed... I'm still able to think clearly... wrote this up, just came into my mind...
Smile,
It uses only a few muscles on the face to generate such view
That sometimes melts a grown up man's heart
Though it's not certain why
But a frown is worth a thousand muscles
It's always the best way to express an emotion
But don't cry, as it will make a person sad
So just smile, as bright as the sun
So it will melt your heart again
ARGGG... yeah... my head is spinning like a top... it's been like 18 hours since I last "tasted" sleep... I haven't gotten this far for not sleeping for the longest hours... my best was 12 hours... but I guess this one will take it's toll on me sooner or later in this coming hours... of the day. So many thing happen on the past few months... make me realized one thing. Peoples do change, in their lives... so whether is good or bad... only God should knows.
Sleeping... bah... how I wish I could do this now... missed my bed so much these past few weeks... so many thing to attend to these days...
Bed, so soft and nice
A place where we rest our mind
So many types of bed
May it be soft or hard, smooth or rough
There is nothing better then our own bed
The smell of the cotton and fabric make us think
That cloud do exist in a form of a bed
So we can rest again for a fresher day
Yeah... looking forward to this coming weekend... why is it so... actually I don't have any freaking idea why am I so looking forward into it. But every weekend is almost the same for me... but then... the little extra "things" that have taken place on the weekdays... will make it more better... hopefully...
Yeah... someone is leaving... for a better job... so I guess personal goals do overpowered certain level of friendship in a group of friends. I would like to wish her all the best in her future undertakings...
Bah... office sux today...
One more hours to go before my lunch time starts... but then again... I can't seems to stop thinking of getting something into my stomach 1st... am hungry now... should I eat or should I starve...
Feel like taking half day work leave today... but then again... ill bet my boss won't aprove it... bah... Yesterday little mini party at one of my friends place turn out great again!!! this time... everyone have some "facial" treatment... hmm...
Yes... on middle of weekdays, and yes tomorrow it isn't a public holiday here... but still, this marathon of sobering and drinking has been going on for the past 2 weeks!!!... So tonight is going to be another crazy night...
Oh gosh... going to be another sleepless night... well not to say sleepless, but in the sense of "not going to have enough sleep" As this weekend, is going to be another milestone in my life... may it be small or big... but still, will be very much going to enjoy it... hmm...
