When you least expected...

The entire thing that you least expected it to happen, just take place all of a sudden. May it be good or bad, just recently all happen to me at my current stage of my life cycle. I can’t say much about them, but I just take them as they come. May it be personal or work, I wish I was well prepared for all these.

BUT if I were all prepare for all these, I guess there is nothing much to learn or gain from? Eh? Why would I say such things? Well 1^st if you expected it to happen, and you already guess what would happen. Would you still want to go and follow or do it? Now this is the million dollar question.

You should ask yourself at times. Do you have what it takes to actually sustain or even know what to do when everything is coming at you thick and fast? Well if you do, then I wish you all the best. If you still don’t, I suggest you to sit back and relax and let everything take care of itself. Well at times this works… but sometimes it doesn’t.

Welcome to my life...

Now where the heck I have been these 2 months? Found someone to spend my free time with? Still doing some soul searching? Still fooling around with my own heart? Still can’t decide to forget about my 1^st ex girl friend that I have left for almost 4 years?

Houston we have a freaking serious problem here. How hard is it to forget someone who has taken apart of your heart in a process of a relationship? I would say fucking hard, is so difficult it makes me look dumb at times. I’m might be good troubleshooting those computer related problems. But when it comes to my own personal problems… I always can’t decide what is best for me.

I once post on my previous blog entries here. True love, meaning… I still can’t find the answer for it. Even God had showed me the way, I still can’t decide what is best for me. Am I that stupid at times or am I just plain ignorant or a fool? At times I feel like killing myself and end my misery on this world. I still freaking miss my ex, and I really missed her a lot. But now my heart has been occupied with another person that has carved her name on it. I will forever cherish the moments that I spend with these 2 lovely girls in my life.

God have showed me love,
I cherish them with my love,
But times will not change my love,
For it will be foolish to forget what has been done.