Responsibility + Effort = ???

Finally, yeah reply again at my blog. Been measuring my room floor and leaving house for something else other then work. Sad eh? My parents were asking to look for job, which I already did. So is not my fault entirely that my oyabin (stands for boss in Japanese) ask me to work at home.

I don’t think anyone buy this excuse that I gave; come to think of it… with my academic qualification. I don’t really deserve this, well maybe I can relax until the big hell unleashes in the next few months. Should be able to handle it… I guess… Does the responsibility given able to blend in with the effort that someone will give out?

The out come would be, I should say… depends on the individual. I for one are someone who like to put in extra effort if require to. Unless, I don’t have the heart to take responsibility/task/work handed to me. Another early morning babbling… Well it seems that is been awhile.

The last I known that I’ve posted at this time was when I were at my old company. How time flies… I think that is almost one year passed.

1st week, hmm... I really started my work ar?

Yeah, started work last week. My boss gave me 5 more days off just to do some analysis on the shops warranty department. Oh boy, tomorrow will be the day I propose to him what is going on with the department. Hope everything will turn out well.

This is just a quick rant on my life at the moment. Going of for a futsal game now. As always, Wednesday is futsal day for me.

Yes, still not yet started my work...

Wasting my free time over and over again with this Warcraft 3 : Frozen Throne custom map game called DotA - Defense of the Ancients. Basically you get a random hero or if u choose to pick one yourself to go head to head with other players in a game of 1vs1/2vs2/3vs3 and so on and so forth. The fucking objective of this game is simple.

Keep yourself alive, I mean defend your team defense tower and keep the Tree of Life for the Sentinel and Frozen Throne for the Scourge from being destroy. As either team tower collapse from being attack from other team hero's, the game is getting tougher.

Well if still don't know what the fuck I'm talking here. Well, nevermind then. I spend mostly all my time playing this custom map for the pass 5 weeks. Still learning how to play well in this game. So this is who I spend my time now. How fucking lame. Starting work soon, hopefully on the 1st of July 2005. Till then, ill be doing some research these coming weeks on PDA's and Pocket PC.

ARGGG, I really need to do something better then leaching my life out from this game...

Back On Track... Are You Sure?

Bah... Been "measuring floor" for the past few days at home. Basically being at home, facing the computer, then take my food, sleep. About sleeping... Well been sleeping like a pig recently. Need to get my body clock back in-synch again with my previous work time sleep.

Going for a trip today to Penang. For a friend's wedding reception. Boy oh boy, seems like everyone is getting married... Thinking hard about my future now. Single Chinese boy, piff... I guess I have to use my heart to find a girl that I like. Not by the looks... Well I don't think is will go fair with what I have just mention?

Personality 1st? Look 2nd? Ill say is a bull shit. Most guys will go for looks, well... I think most of them. Don't be so shallow "la" brother.

Take care everyone who visit this blog. Ill be back... Hopefully without a inch increase on my waist line...

The hardest thing to say...

Good bye? Well is not that I'm dying or something... (touch wood). I officially leaving my current company Synovate Sdn Bhd. I glad that I'm able to be a part of that company journey thru-out 3 years and 11 months. If I wasn't given the chance to work there, I won't be able to discover new friends as well as listen to advise that will change some courses in my life. I thank all my friends once again.

So where do I go from here? Greener pasture? Well I just hope that with my new work, I'm able to push on myself to be a better person. Heck a job with out challenge is just another stagnate paper weight.

See you again my friends. Ill still be around. Just SMS or e-mail me for makan-makan(eating session). Ill be there... If my new job doesn't tie me up that MUCH! =')

R&B, Trance or Dangdut sir?

It's been awhile since I indulge myself into KL club trance scenes. 1st problem is that, my usual party gangs were not at KL anymore. My friend, who I met at my office working as an intern continued her study at Australia. Missed her so much, I wish her all the best in her studies.

She missed half of her semester at her university due to an operation on her brain to remove a blood clot due to Cerebral thrombosis. Thou it's on the early stages, I'm still shock that she survived. I hope that god is on her side. But hey, I think she has to stop smoking... =).

ZOUK KL, a local club at Klang Valley. Was the place I were last night. They held the Heineken Thirst Asia Pacific Semi Final, and the winner was from Indonesia. They had a superb performance, eclipse over the Japanese woman DJ.

In which her England is bad, she really need an image consultant as well. Apart from her 13th years experience in DJ scenes, she really does need a major make-over on her self image. I was practically drunk, so the only way to get myself out of it was to dance. Thank god the music was right on my ear's "G" spot for trance music.

I dance thru out the remaining 3 hours, and now my legs from the knee onwards were numb. I glad that I've manage to get the alcohol out from my system, if not I'm not sure if I could drive myself home.

SO by this post on my blog, that means I'm saved and sound. I would like to thank all my friends for the company last night. Really enjoyed it, I can't wait for the next one... perhaps...

And then it was the next day...

Finally Friday the 13th May 2005 has passed. SO many things happen on that day, makes me look so bloody inferior to myself. I was so close to burst myself out into tears YET again. But manage to hold on and go thru the day.

Not sure what was the heck with this kind of feelings at the moment. Maybe I'm going to miss my friends and colleague when I leave my current company in precisely 10.5 days ( The 0.5 days is due to my HR department minus it out from my leaves. I personally ask them to do so). Been working for almost 3 years and 11 months on that company.

Bear witness the ups... and then totally down for the company management. Fucking demoralising for most of the staffs around. So... lets hope now this coming 10.5 days left, would be a good one worth to remember for the rest of my life.

Over Roger, Over and out...

Yeah, right... Miss communication always occurs. This is a two way event, not one but two. If this always happen to you at times which you least expected. You got a serious problems over there.

How to solve this issue?

Well I guess you can start to find out what is the problem, is it on my side? Or the other party? One way or the other. I always takes two to tango. Note to self:- MUST make sure myself take the initiative to make all the things clear to who ever I will have a conversation in the future... PIFF!!!

Yes or No, True or False, Real or Fake?

Well, writing this up basically I can’t figure out what my “other part” of my life is thinking at the moment. Should I take my time on searching again for what is bothering me like what I have previously waste my 3 years time?

If I choose to do this again, I don’t think I’m able to find the things that I would want. Waste of time ill say. So right now I hope when the time comes, I mean when I start my new work. I hope that as the days goes by, IN some way that God or anyone will show me the correct route to follow in order to find that “think” that has been bothering me since 3 years ago… Well is coming to almost 4 years now.

Mr. Brightside...

The meaning behind this song from “The Killers”, I myself not sure about this. But I just can’t stop listening to it. Yeah I kind of get hook with indie rock music now. Finally ill be leaving my current job for the past 3 years +. Will be starting my new job on June. A totally new line of work for me.

I have been staying in the comfort zone far too long. Is time I take some chances on my work and life? If I choose to say longer at my current company, Ill be a heavier paper weight. So wish me all the best this coming June as I embark on a new journey towards a new career in my life…

Perhaps there is a Mr. Brightside after all…

When you least expected...

The entire thing that you least expected it to happen, just take place all of a sudden. May it be good or bad, just recently all happen to me at my current stage of my life cycle. I can’t say much about them, but I just take them as they come. May it be personal or work, I wish I was well prepared for all these.

BUT if I were all prepare for all these, I guess there is nothing much to learn or gain from? Eh? Why would I say such things? Well 1^st if you expected it to happen, and you already guess what would happen. Would you still want to go and follow or do it? Now this is the million dollar question.

You should ask yourself at times. Do you have what it takes to actually sustain or even know what to do when everything is coming at you thick and fast? Well if you do, then I wish you all the best. If you still don’t, I suggest you to sit back and relax and let everything take care of itself. Well at times this works… but sometimes it doesn’t.

Welcome to my life...

Now where the heck I have been these 2 months? Found someone to spend my free time with? Still doing some soul searching? Still fooling around with my own heart? Still can’t decide to forget about my 1^st ex girl friend that I have left for almost 4 years?

Houston we have a freaking serious problem here. How hard is it to forget someone who has taken apart of your heart in a process of a relationship? I would say fucking hard, is so difficult it makes me look dumb at times. I’m might be good troubleshooting those computer related problems. But when it comes to my own personal problems… I always can’t decide what is best for me.

I once post on my previous blog entries here. True love, meaning… I still can’t find the answer for it. Even God had showed me the way, I still can’t decide what is best for me. Am I that stupid at times or am I just plain ignorant or a fool? At times I feel like killing myself and end my misery on this world. I still freaking miss my ex, and I really missed her a lot. But now my heart has been occupied with another person that has carved her name on it. I will forever cherish the moments that I spend with these 2 lovely girls in my life.

God have showed me love,
I cherish them with my love,
But times will not change my love,
For it will be foolish to forget what has been done.

The good old days...

Was scavenging my old house for reference book I were using them when I were at college. Found some old cassette tapes in the process which I purchase when I was a younger, the high school days. Those songs brought back the old good days when I was studying at high school, the good the bad and the ugly. The days when I was being call into the principles office for getting my head skinned... Also fighting at class... Ah so vivid in my mind. Wondering now what can I do to make it better IF I can turn back the time. But I guess there is reason that god forbid us traveling back into time, changes sometimes will make things worst. More over it will make things better at times, but messing up the time line will surely bring some disturbance of the days of now. Imagine if I didn't do those things last time, would I be what I am now?

Just think about it.

Adios to the good old days.

Looking forward for another chapter in my life... As everyday comes by.

Yes, and finally is all done!!!

My broadband service is finally up and running... now I can do most of the things I want at home... no more staying late at office again!!!

Till then...

Adios.

& Then There Was...

Streamyx, yes!!! Finally!!! TMnet will be installing the broadband service at my house today. I guess this will give me more reason to blog now =) So will be posting my 1st post with the new broadband service later in the evening. Till then Auf Wiedersehen!